Awww, I cried so much! So much pain to endure. I'm glad Nick helped her and pushed aside his own assanine feelings to help her. I understand why you did this chapter this way. you are right about them not being ready but then again we all want to see them with a happy ending, which i am sure you will eventually provide! I trust you. You do a great job with both stories.

I think Clare will be a big help to Jen she truely loves her. Well, as always waiting patiently for the next!

Hugs,

Louise

Author's Response:

thanks Louise. 

this was an incredibly difficult chapter to write and to post. 

Nick has been on my redemption radar for so long, i am so glad he is finally on the path in everyone's eyes... and for him to help Jen... it will help to fix the damage he caused.

Clare will be an important figure for Jen, something she has needed for so long... a mother.

thanks my dear. your support means so much to me. Thank you for taking this journey!

MWAH!

steph

Well, I knew she was pregnant. But I totally get the way you took the story. Although I am a "happy ending" kinda girl, that would have been too easy. It's sad to have it end so tragically, and I'm sure Rob is going to devastated, as is his family. However, I see it as a sign that they can have a normal life together, like a normal couple, and maybe medical advances will be able to work in their favor so she can carry his baby.

You are right, it is a journey for both of them. She's had tragedy galore. And he is yound and immature.

I support every decision you've made and look forward to the next chapter -and their future.

Author's Response:

thanks my dear.

they'll have a bumpy road to travel, but it will hopefully make both of them stronger for it, to understand that what they have is so important and worth fighting for. and medical advances are definitely an option. 

this is their time to pull together and be what they need to be- best friends, lovers and partners. things that need to be done together, for one another...

thank you so much my dear. 

always...more soon.

mwah!

steph

Wow - this was the most intense chapter yet!  I knew that she was pregnant but, never did I think that she would loose the child.  So sad, yet, I understand your decision for writing it this way.  Rob will be mortified when he finds out the truth. I get that Jen doesn't want Rob to know about this because of his filming obligations, but this is pretty serious.  I do get it though.  I'm glad that Nick was able to step up and help Jen during this terrible time and I'm starting to like him for the mere fact that he called Claire to come to LA.  Definately the right thing to do. 

Brilliant job with this chapter, you had me at the edge of my seat in anticipation.  I can't wait for Jen and Rob to be together again. 

Can't wait for more!!!!!

Author's Response:

thank you so much my dear,

Jen is really not in her right mind regarding this, you are absolutely right. Rob needs to know, and soon... truly the only way they will overcome this is to do it together... i'll get us there... she needs the love and support she never had before... 

and Nick.... i can't tell you how long this scenario has played out in my head, and the fear and anxiety i had with each passing Nick the Prick chapter where he received soo much anger towards him. i am so glad you see, he is not necessarily the BAD man, just really blinded by his own life and career... he is making steps...

thank you my dear. so much, for your wonderful review. i am so overcome by everyones words... you all simply awe me.

more soon, always....

MWAH!

steph

*TEARS*.....

whew.... NSFW was true.  This was a really tough chapter.  And not where I thought you would go.  If she wasn't pregnant, I thought maybe she would be sick or something more serious.  But the way you've dealt with this was great.  It would be a disservice to Jen and to what she's gone through and to what many of us go through with problems with Fertility to just have a "miracle" pregnancy with no issues.  Especially given what she's been through already and that she wasn't under doctor supervision.

Rob is going to be devastated when he finds out what happened.  I'm sure he won't blame Jen, but he's probably going to blame himself for not checking on her when he was worried.  Figures, their first time apart once they've found each other again, and this happens. 

I also love that you had Nick help Jen, which is a perfect recipe for him to redeem himself, not only in their eyes, but perhaps also in his own.  Jen will forgive him for the help he provided her.  I think she really understood why Nick did what he did, even if she disagreed with his methods and how it played out.  Maybe he can forgive himself?

And that he's called Claire.  What a perfect person.  Let's see what she has to say, and how long it will be until Jen gets back to Rob.  Oh, that's not going to be a pleasant meeting.

As always Steph, you out-do yourself.  This chapter was so poignant and realistic, but still a twist that maybe not everyone anticipated.  I loved it.  I love how you stay true to Jen.  And I'm really looking forward to their (eventual) HEA.

*HUGS*

Terri

 

Author's Response:

thanks so much Terri,

i can't tell you how hard it was to stay quiet about this chapter. with knowing so many who have dealt with something like this. it has truly worn on me. posting was like a release... and now... to read so much love and pain from all of you... i cry all over again.

Rob and Jen have a difficult road to travel. her choice to keep him in the dark... i shake my head and let out my breath... it is going to be a reunion that will take some tissues... again... and Rob will be devastated.but they need each other to get thru... how could i be so cruel to put this on them at this point in his filming... i shake my head at my cruelty... but then, it's for a reason i keep telling myself. we'll see....

I am so happy to see so many look at Nick a little differently.. again, something that has been wearing on me for a very long time.. Nick is not a BAD man, he has made mistakes based on personal and professional prejudices... and he has suffered for it as well... i have been waiting for this reveal for so long... and to write him as such an asshole all this time... truly cruel of me and he REALLY needs a gift basket...LOL! Now, will they automatically forgive and forget... no... i wouldn't say that... hehehehehe. more to come... 

Clare... what will Clare do? she'll be the mother Jen never had. Jen has always been alone to deal with the pain of life, even with her father, she had no maternal nurturing... and this NEEDS it. how will Clare react to Jen holding back... we might just see how much of a force Mum Pattinson can be.

thank you terri. i was so worried about how my tri-o's and everyone else would feel about this... i waffled for a bit, but in the end, i had faith in you guys, that you would hopefully see what i was hoping to do. Jen is a survivor. she'll get thru this, and with the love of a wonderful family and Rob, she might even heal.

love you

steph

It seems that great minds think alike. ;) Right before the holidays, I got to thinking that if photos came out of "them" together in England, that it would be confirmation enough for me, that it was inevitably true. (no more, head in the sand) So, like you, I was a little heartbroken when reality presented itself. I was actually happy that the photos were of a fan with them, and not paps pics.
I was wondering how you were going to handle their relationship, and am not disappointed in the least. Jen handled it as well as expected, I think.
My feelings about them are such that I want Rob to be happy, and if she does that, then more power to her. I will admit that there are times, when her maturity and attitude concern me, but I also know that she is probably the one person that he trusts more than than anyone else.
He definitely does not deserve to be alone. It is not my intention to sound crass, but someone needs to be "tapping that" on a regular basis, or there is no God.
With me being a happily married woman, (though, my DH knows that He is definitely my "free pass" if the opportunity presents itself) and not living anywhere near Rob, I like knowing that Rob seems happy with her.
I've got to say that when I saw some of the pics of Rob with all of his friends on the isle, I kind of hoped that maybe Kristen was secretly "courting" Tom, and Rob was just "a front". That's why I said great minds think alike, earlier.
Wow, this is the longest review, I've ever written. Sorry. Writing RPattz fics are so complicated. It's a strange mix of reality and alternate universe.

Author's Response:

thanks so much Katiebird!

ahhh. this was such a difficult chapter to write for me... personally...

I agree with you on so much here, great minds definitely think a like. People look at those of us who "obsess" over Rob and laugh. "you will never have him, what's the big deal if he's dating KStew?" well, for me it's about his happiness. i'll never be with him (LOL!-snapple lady courts ROB, yeah right) i'll probably never meet him. But i respect him and want what's best for him. Call it the mama bear thing. i want him to have a good girl with a good heart that understands his lifestyle and supports him... Is that Kristen. I think elements are there. She understands the life, she seems to make him happy, as a friend and or whatever else... she's a bit immature for my mama bear liking, she has some issues... but if Rob is happy... where i get nervous of the two being together is that there is so much stress in their lives, i would hate for them to go down a dark road (Heath Ledger, River Phoenix) and i am not sure Kristen has the support to deal with that. she is barely holding on herself. My saving grace to all this is Rob's family. they will support him. 

and yes... he needs someone to be there for him intimately... it would be a crime not to... i sadly have the feeling he gets much less than he needs/deserves on that front... even mama bear is sad about that....

The Isle of Wight really threw me, and other pics have done the same... I was so worried once, i actually have written a chapter of "if they come out" so that i can explain it- more to myself than anything else... i hope i never have to use it...and i mean that in a very selfish way, i know... but i strongly believe that his private life is that... 

hehee... the TomStew grouping is a good diversion, don't you think? heehee...great minds.

RPattz fics... boy i made the big leap to really follow his life with this one, and while it is fun to explain what we see in photos... it is tough... every day i cringe when i hear there is news... how will i spin that?! sigh... it's been fun... but draining...

long review gets long response! LOL! i love the long ones, because you put such thought into them, thank you for that! i always have enough time to read and answer them.

thanks my dear!

more soon! (how come i thought you were further ahead?)

MWAH!

steph

Le Weep.

Le Tear.

Le Sigh.

I have caught up... I haven't had a fanfic that I have read that wasn't complete! Fanfic cherry popper. I will read some of your recs, 'specially the one from the beer duo. =D 

Author's Response:

thanks my dear. oooh !i'm a cherry popper?! that's very exciting! 

well, i do my best to update every week, so the time in between is not very long. With the other story, i go back and forth updating, so about every 6-9 days a new chapter is up for this one, and the same on the On the Threshold. so really, its like two chapters a week of RObJen!

thanks so much my dear! i am so excited you are caught up! 

and yes, Loss of Control by KrisB is a definite rec, she is my evil beer loving twin! 

MWAH!

and now i can say it.... more soon! 

steph

30 more chapters?!? YAY! But, wait... I'll never leave the house. Hmmm... 

Author's Response:

BWHAHAHA! and you haven't even started Rob's story (oh dear lord there's another story! hahahaha)

yeah...this story kinda owns me... but with great readers like you... it makes up for the lack of sleep, the increase in coffee, the NTE20 (pounds i've gained since quiting the gym to write) and the bursting photobucket of research pics of rob... its a challenge... but i am dedicated... snicker, snort, chuckle...

thanks my dear! OOOOOOH you are so close to being caught up!!! yay!

MWAH!

steph

OK, I have been so engrossed, I have just been clicking "next" instead of leaving a review! Sorry for neglecting you, dear! I <3 the Pat family, descriptions of London and areas (never been but I can imagine) and the Brit Pack. They are all so endearing! BTW: On the incredibly LONG author's note (ha ha), I feel sorry for Kristen. She is so young and has this propensity for bumbling and has the brain/mouth disconnection when she is interviewing. Granted, teens in Hollywood are seen as more "mature" than other teens... (i.e. Oprah talking with Dakota Fanning about seeming more "mature") But they are still kids. I couldn't even imagine what nonsense would leak from my mouth if I were in her shoes. She probably is still working on her inner filter (something that definitely comes with age.) Being the youngest in a family doesn't help either. I have noticed that she is getting better with her interviews. And Mamma Bear comes out thinking "Oh, look at her, didn't stumble on her words that time, I'm so proud!"

Author's Response:

LOL! quite alright my dear! that next button is sooo tempting! I did a lot of research on London and the Brit Pack... so thank you for letting me know they ring well with you! Rob wasn't even a glimmer in Clare's eyes the last time i was in London! LOL!

so Kristen. I'll admit, i didn't like her much before i started writing this. and maybe that's because i work with kids her age every day...so the awkward young child that she puts off annoyed me as i reflected onthe other kids i deal with. not that i hate my students, nono... i love them, it is just a lot to take in when you think about "Back in my day!" hahaha

but as i got to writing, and as i really really thought about what it must be- to be shy and awkward and not ready for the fame this saga has thrust on them, i really began to feel sorry for them... Kris has it pretty rough. not only is she supposed to be BELLA... but she has to face the constant barrage of questions regarding her personal life... and that Rob and Kris NEED to be Edward and Bella for many... which is wrong in my book... but we all know that about me... rob is rob. Kris is kris... and add to that the hatred of some fans who are angry that she is (r isn't ) with Rob... that's a lot of stress for a young introverted girl... 

so yeah.. another long note... i feel for her- still don't really care for her acting much, but she is young and can train and grow.. and she has plenty of time to do that.. after all the saga stuff is over...

 

thanks my dear! 

off to answer your other reviews! 

I'm behind! 

MWAH!

steph

Complete giggle-town during the snowball fight! "Yes, I am sure the little snowflakes fall in little British accents on the way down". Gotta love cynical inner-dialogue! I know I'm late in the game, but still loving it!

Author's Response:

thanks  my dear!

her inner dialouge gets a little snarky now and again, which i love. and the snowball fight! gah i can just see his wonky run !

aww not late in the game, you get so many chapters without having to wait for updates! that's the best! heehee

thanks so much my dear! 

I am really enjoying being able to come back and revisit the story as you read it! 

MWAH!

steph

are you sure Jen can't conceive?..........trying to remember if you were specific about her condition........hmmmmmm.
Good chapter.
:)molly......irish sister

Author's Response:

Hello my dear Molly! 

You are correct...i was not specific about her condition, as she may not necessarily know... and as we only hear what she says... hmmmmm....

we will learn a lot more coming up. 

thanks so much my dear!

more soon!

MWAH!

steph

tee hee hee hee hee hee... 

 

giggly school girl...

 

that is all

Author's Response:

heeheeheehee! so glad you liked it! 

LOL!

MWAH!

steph

OMG

Sob! This chapter was so, so sad! And you say there is more to come?! I don't think I will make it.

I have to make a confession. I have followed your story since the beginning, and this is the first time I leave a review. (Shame on me!)

 

But, I LOVE this story and Robs pov. And I promise, from now on I will leave a review on a regulair basis. I can't promise that I review every chapter, but I am going to try.

 

Keep up the good work girl!!

Love

Kimberley

Author's Response:

Hi Kimberley!

A veteran! Oh i am so happy you came out of lurkdom to say hi! thank you so much for sticking it through from the very beginning! 

and i am so glad you found the Rob POV! whatever you do , I am just happy to have you on the journey with us! :)

this was an emotional chapter... will there be more... *whispers* yes... she has a lot of things in LA to deal with... but i'll get us thru it... we'll get her back to Rob as soon as i can!

thanks so much my dearest!

MWAH!

steph

You sertainly made me cry....

Good thing i`m att home...

Thank you for this wonderfull story!!

Author's Response:

thanks my dear! 

I'm glad you were at home...crying in public can be awkward... 

so glad you enjoyed it! 

More soon!

MWAH!

steph