Poor, poor Jen.  She's lucky Clare came to for her, though I did want to smack Clare on the head a few times.  She was a little too enthusiastic about some of Jen's "possibilities" for having kids, when Jen just wanted to have the ultrasound and deal with it.  :-(

Wonderful chapter as always, Steph! 

xoxo Sarah

Author's Response:

thanks hun... and once again you grab that little nugget i hope some see. 

Clare is so very important to Jen's recovery, to learn what it is to be a mother without the necessary carrying of the child... but the excitement of the idea of Jen being able to have kids is a little premature.. even Clare has some flaws. that need to be a nana, that hope that there is a chance. something to be thought about when Jen can breahte... i love Clare... but Jen needs to deal with everything else before being exited about what may be... let's hope Rob is not that way... well.. i know how he will be... but i am not telling...heeehee

thanks so much my dear.

MWAH!

steph

Well I know we just reviewed yesterday but I wanted to tell you again what a wonderful job you did weaving real illness and medical terms in with your story this chapter reads like a true medical wonder  we shared this chapter with in house OBGYN and he was very excited to share surgical procedures to aid her in her desire to be a mother  and to be able to carry a child for Rob   another profesional hooked  on your tale   and I know I all but threatened to kick Nicks ass my self but you got to hand it to him he  did the right thing for jen   he could have just called London and told rob just  to save his own ass but he gave her the time she need to come to terms with the loss  and did the next best thing    got Clare for her            I think there is more to Nick than  we thought   

and you know I need the next chapter like I need to breath 

well back to our 4th cookout  fixing steaks ribs  and thinking of you 

your devoted fan and friend 

Doug & Cris     

Author's Response:

i cannot tell you how tickled i am to have the house OBGYN hooked in to the story. oh we may be exchanging more info sure enough... and to know that it reads believably to the medical community. well that makes me blush... it is always a let down for me when a write doesn't do the research ( a recent BIG story did that for me, about sailing... and i felt a little betrayed) so i am just so pleased i could provide a bit of realism to the story...

nick... i know Dougie has thoughts on him, especially after OTT... but yes.. he did right by jen here... we'll see how he does with Rob when they get back together.

thank you so much cris. you know i am sending hugs to you and to Dougie both. 

big kisses!

MWAH!

steph

Can I tell you how surprised I was to see the "Chapter End Notes"?! When i was reading thisI didn't notice how many times i was scrolling down to read more. 

Needless to say, i love this story and this chapter.  I got teary eyed many times for poor Jen.  She has been through the ringer and i hope rob can help her get out of her funk. I'm so happy Clare is there to help her out; there's nothing like having a mother (figure) helping you and supporting you.

By now, I feel like Jen is my best friend and that I can relate indefinitely to her. That means you are an excellent writer, which I'm sure I've told you before!

i hope one day you can publish this story so EVERYONE can enjoy it, not just the fab people on here ;) no pressure though lol

Thanks for another great chapter.  Love ya girl!!

-Allison

Author's Response:

thanks so much Allison!

it means so much to me to know how engrossed readers get into the story. i know. isn't it weird that the end notes come so quickly for stories! and thats saying alot with this one, since i am little miss wordy! 

Jen definitely needs Rob to get her out of her funk, they need one another to get thru this. Clare. Jen needs the mother she never had. thank goodness for Clare.

I am so happy to hear how much you care for Jen. she is so dear to my heart... 

publish... one day maybe. not sure how this story will read with Rob's name changed. but you all have given me a little hope that maybe, one day, i can publish something. that means a lot! (especially to my hubs who can't quite understand why i do this for free.hahaha)

thank you so much my dear. it means the world to me!

MWAH!

steph

Powerful stuff there.  And Clare as the angry mambear!  Perfect.  Rob knows Jen is hiding what's going on and I can feel (remember you WRITE FEELINGS) his hurt....Let's not let Nick off the hook so fast....JS!

 

All in all a great chqpter!  Let's get Jen hometo Rob soon!!!!

Author's Response:

Ah mum bear Clare... i simply adore her... so glad you can feel the hurt! ok... in a good way i am glad you feel it, not in a sadistic 50 shades sort of way... lol!

Nick... he still has work to do to redeem. never fear.

thanks my dear!

more soon!

MWAH!

steph

Oh so sad.  Rob needs to be with her.  Please dont shut him out!  These two need to get thru this together. They need to help each other.  Rob will feel so hurt if he cant be there for her.  Looking forward to the next chapter and the two finally being with each other. I hope it is early in the chapter and not at the end.  No cliff hanger reunions.  PLEASE! I wont be able to take it. LOL.  Thank you so much for your beautiful story and these two characters you have created.  Update ASAP Please!! Hope your 4th of July is a nice one.!  Wasnt expecting an update the weekend.  It was a nice surpirse.

Author's Response:

they definitely need to get thru it together. it is the only way they will both heal. 

ummm. you know how i roll with reunions.... cough cough. i am not spoiling anything... update is coming. and i have a surprise for reviewers for the next chapter... so look for it! it will help!

thanks so much my dear!

MWAH!

steph

You're breaking my heart here! This hits close to home. Poor Rob, he'll be devastated won't he. But maybe happy to have some hope of having kids with her.

Author's Response:

thank you so much hun, i am sorry if it brings any pain. Rob will have a lot to work out... and well. kids... i do promise a HEA.. how that will be we just have to see (ok you will. i have it written already...hehehee.now to write all the in between!)

thanks so much my dear!

more soon!

mwah!

steph

how many chapters do you need to explain the same thing ?..., please 

Author's Response:

it's the process of grieving. And whiel we learned some of what has happened to Jen, she has to process it. it isn't something that will be resolved in one chapter. i won't do that to those that have had to go thru this. Please have patience. things will get better. 

thanks!

MWAH!

steph

I think this'll be one of the shortest reviews I've ever left for NTE, but not because the chapter wasn't brilliant (because as per usual you've left me hanging and gagging for more) but because I'm literally lost for words. I can only imagine what Jen's reunion with Rob is going to be like and I think I'm going to have to bubble-wrap my heart or something, else I end up a bawling mess on the train to work.

Rob: Our ever-loving/anxious/self-conscious Brit-boy star. Be there for Jen dear, because you're going to have to hold yourself and Jen together very soon.

Jen: The single toughest, most endearing sweetheart to ever grace a Rob RL fic I've read. Has experienced the most devastating pits of hell in life, yet still come out the other side to be the yin to Rob's yan.

Clare: When she says 'dearheart' I turn into mush. Want to adopt me Mrs P?

Nick: Slowly redeeming himself. Seems this time, BrokenJen has made him rethink a few things/priorities in life.

Author's Response:

tears...seriously. i have read this review a few times now as i struggle to respond to them all, and you bring me to tears. everytime. 

i deserve it i suppose. i make you cry on the train. but you truly have my love and appreciation for your support and love for this story. i love seeing your reviews. i've said that before. but its true. 

Rob. what can i say but i am terrified to write this in OTT... it's going to hurt me...these chapters hurt... to have to process it thru his heart... i have to take some time before i do it. but he will be so good for her.

you couldn't have said it better- Yin and Yan. they are intertwined, they are intergral. they cannot exist wholy without the other. that is just awesome that you said that.because that is how i see them.

Jen. even the strong falter, don't they? so much love she has, so much desire to be there for those she loves... she falters, but she will stand again, with Rob's help. 

oh you know how i love clare...i think she'd be surprised in Rl how much so many of us love her. and we don't even know her!

Nick-he is definitely re evaluating what he has done. and is getting to see her in a whole new light. oh i can't wait for the next chapter!

ok..i won't spoil... i just can't wait to hear your thoughts, and have you make me cry again. 

thanks my dear. your reviews brighten my day every time!

MWAH!

steph

Thank goodness for Clare.  She is really what Jen needs at this time.  I do hope that she will go into therapy in the near future so she can learn to deal with all the tragedy that she has had to endure.

Author's Response:

thanks hun. Therapy will be a must. something she should have dealt with years ago. But now she has something she can fight for. 

and you know how i love Clare... she is wonder mom...

thanks so much my dear!

MWAH!

steph

Poor case of dejavue. She has to deal with it sometime and what better time than now with someone who I guess is the closets thing to family. It seems that she is still trying to adjust to the fact that it's not only Rob who loves her but his whole family as well.  I hope she learns to trust in love back again. Rob seemed hurt that once again things are being kept from him yet again. What a shocked to him to hear is mom on the phone with Jen. I would feel hurt and pissed, but more hurt that the trust wasn't their. I don't know. Nick, what can I say, i feel bad for him now. Poor thing, when is going to come out of the dog house? Is Rob gonna be mad at Nick? Can't wait for your next update

Author's Response:

so much here! 

ok... it is hard for her to understand, after a lifetime of struggling to have the love of her family, to suddenly have this unconditional love coming at her from people she really has only just become to know. and the cinderella feeling that Rob will disappear has to weigh on her. how can she be so lucky? right?

Poor Rob, exactly that he feels hurt. and now, not just from nick, but from mum and jen, two people who should trust him implicitly. There will be some discussions over that to be sure.

ah nick... i am glad you have feelings for him. he's not out of the woods yet. but maybe he can peek his head out of the dog house now. 

will rob be mad at him? hmmm. it's complicated. we'll see... 

more soon!

thanks so much my dear!

MWAH!

steph

holy crap...I am exhausted after that chap...totally spent!!!  The writing was superb, as usual.  Thanks for for the hint that you will have them back together next chap...can't wait for it.  I am going to be so so sad when this story is over...I just adore it and get so excited when I see that you updated!!!

Author's Response:

thanks so much my dear! it has been a wearing few chapters i know. i have a surprise for reviewers next chapter, to help us along. 

and yes... we will see Rob next chapter... i can't keep them away any longer.

still a lot to get thru , so more chapters ahead... i can't even think of the end. it makes me sad too. and then i think of OTT and realize i should just install a laptop to me hip. its the only way i will ever finish!

thanks hun!

more soon!

MWAH!

steph

That was very emotional, all the test she had to go thru. I think it was good that Clare was there with her, helping her thru all that and with Rob. BTW that is one conversation I'm anxious to read. And also it was hard to see all the guilt she have about thing that are out of her control, I only hope she let her (not just Rob now) family help her and that she seeks for help. I don't know if glad is a good word but I am glad that Nick has also being there with her too and that he had to saw first hand how deep their feeling are for one and other. 

Author's Response:

thank you so much my dear. she has so much to get thru, having Clare there definitely helped to keep her from losing herself. and losing rob. She has a lot of guilt, and hopefully therapy and with Rob she will see it is not her. life isn't pretty. But she is a fighter, she just needs that support to help her back up.Oh the convo with Rob. and his reaction... to be honest i am terrified to write it in OTT. its going to be an emotional rollercoaster in that boys head....

Nick. he is really beginning to understand the scope of their relationship. who knows, he might become an advocate for them... wouldn't that be interesting...

thanks my dear!

More soon!

MWAH!

steph