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Penname: AJ04 [Contact]
Real name: Monica
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Member Since: July 01, 2009

Used to be a die hard Sci-fi fanatic...but my new Twilight obession is quickly overshadowing it...LOL...loving every minute of it!

I am a mother of three rabuncious and energetic kids ages 11,8, and 6. They keep me on my toes.

I read alot in order to escape the rigors of real life and it was my sister who acutally introduce me to the Twilight Saga after raving about it for months. LoL...I never would imagine the world in which I now find myself. I have met a number of fans and have made lifelong friends along the way. A group of us known as the Edge girls met on Twilighters Anonymous and it was one of my fellow Edger's that introduced me to Twilighted. I love them all to pieces and am thrilled to find another site to fill my reading obsession.

10-27-10 Things in RL are on a rollarcoaster right now, so to my darling authors...I will R&R as I have time but know you are not forgotten. I love each and everyone of you and value the journey's I have been on with every story I read. You author's rock and help me thru some tough times and for that I can't thank you enough. =)

1-1-11 Happy New Years!
Wow...hard to believe it is the start of a new all my unbelievable authors; I write this to let you know that RL has really taken a toll. I am trying to catch up but recently I had a setback when my computer was dropped and now I have trouble logging on. As much as I would love to go buy a new computer, I can't with my budget being the way it is right now. So know that I will try and log on as much as I can at home and at work. As busy as work and my three kids keep me, unfortunatly the time I get to spend on here is limited but so very much appreciated. I regain my sanity here so, Thank you all for being there! Have a safe and blessed New Year!
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Loner by Nilla Rated: NC-17 starstarstarstarstar [Reviews - 9908]

Edward Cullen was a loner, an outcast. He clearly hated everybody, including himself. He was not a nice person. So, why was I so drawn to him? And why did I get the crazy feeling he felt the same way?

WARNING: This story will deal with the aftermath of child abuse and rape. If that bothers you too much, I strongly recommend that you don’t read.



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Categories: AU-Human Characters: Bella, Edward
Series: None
Chapters: 115 Completed: Yes Word count: 365612
[Report This] Published: November 13, 2009 Updated: July 06, 2011

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Date: May 13, 2010 Title: Chapter 40: Chapter 40

OK there is no way to shut off the water works over at my place right now...where the hell are my tissues!!! You just love to make me cry don't you? But I guess these are in a ways happy tears because I believe Edward is learning how to let go. His past is truly horrific and while I know everyone is hurting right now, I do think you are bringing everyone to a better place. The cliffie you left us with is about to kill me so PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE update soon.

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Date: May 17, 2010 Title: Chapter 41: Chapter 41

*Jumping up and down cartoon style!* Oh my GOD! I am so HAPPY! They are talking and I hope in time Edward realizes he can love and be loved. What I wouldn't give to hunt Elizabeth down and give her a piece of my mind and then hunt down James and just beat the hell out of good bastard.

I am beyound relieved that Edward won't let go as well...sigh...I bow to your sheer brilliance! I love it and can't wait for more!!

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Date: May 21, 2010 Title: Chapter 42: Chapter 42

*Gasp! I see a glimmer of hope and crying happy tears!* It is so sad to think Edward thinks so poorly of himself but I hope he takes to heart what Bella is telling him. She is exactly what he needs. I did a happy dance when he broke down only for the fact that I knew it would make Edward feel better. When he asked for a kiss I literally jumped up and cheered...This is fabulous!!! I can't wait to see what happens next. I hope Edward thinks long and hard about Bella being right. It is all that bastard James's fault not his...

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Date: May 25, 2010 Title: Chapter 43: Chapter 43

*Melted in a lil puddle of HAPPY goo* I am so excited by the progress Edward is making. I can't wait to see what happens next...could our dear Edward follow Bella to Phoenix to help her deal with her mother's house? Did I mention I am excited!

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Date: June 03, 2010 Title: Chapter 45: Chapter 45

Oh god honey this was beyound Brilliant..this is phenomenal! Such emotion! It is so heartbreaking to watch Edward go thru that, and he didn't lash out at Bella like Carlisle had feared. Maybe now Carlisle will understand that Bella is so good for him and Edward would never hurt her. Poor Edward must be reliving some nightmares and it breaks my heart that he is hurting so badly. But like Bella, I see hope for him. It warms my heart that he is showing the compassion he has...

I will anxiously await the next update!

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Date: June 08, 2010 Title: Chapter 46: Chapter 46

OH Honey...this is PHENOMENAL!

Edward has been thru so much and I can't help but cheer and cry happy tears that Bella was able to help him thru this tramatic time. Just listening to just a small bit of his past in this chapter had me seeing red and wish I could just get a chance to rip James to shreds for putting Edward thru such pain.

I can't help but wonder what Elizabeth was thinking when she let a monster like that near her son. I have children myself and I can't fathom anyone hurting them. I would die first before I would allow anyone to touch my babies like that(The expression over my dead body comes to mind).

Sigh...You are such a talented author, I am honored to be on this journey with you.

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Date: April 20, 2011 Title: Chapter 103: Chapter 103

First off..

Ok so for your birhtday I will not fly off the handle by being left at a most intersting scene. LOL...oh how you love to get the heart racing. I was teary eyed just listening to Carlisle having a heart to heart. God that was beautiful. I will anxiously await the next update...

PS: Hope you are resting and taking care of yourself. My advice: Sleep now because once those little ones come, it will be a thing of the

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Date: June 13, 2010 Title: Chapter 47: Chapter 47

Oh jesus! Elizabeth was definatly screwed in the head. I have to wonder if ames took her off of her meds so he could get at Edward. Again what I wouldn't give to beat that rat bastard into a bloody pulp. Grrrrr

Wow... I'm so proud of Emmett and Alice for standing their ground with Rose. Edward will appreciate it in the future even if he's not aware of it yet.

I can't wait for the next day and what it will bring...

Again I am in awe of your story and kneel to your brilliance...

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Date: June 24, 2010 Title: Chapter 49: Chapter 49

I am thrilled Bella will be talking with Edward by how she feels. This will be such a huge step in thier relationship and I think Edward will appreciate it. I can't wait to see how that turns out. So excited for the evening.

Awww Edward is getting to be so sweet. Le was great that he tried to bake cookies for Bella. I loved the gesture. Poor Emmett, I hope Rosalie comes around so that they can be together again.

No prob on the review response, I am thrilled to get another chapter so all's good in my lil world. I hope RL starts taking it easy on you...Take care!

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Date: June 29, 2010 Title: Chapter 50: Chapter 50

Wow...that was great! I am sure Emmett was just as surprised at Edward as Edward was at himself. I wouldn't underestimate Emmett...I seriously doubt he will give up any time soon...I just love Emmett for trying.

Awww I am glad Edward is starting to feel so comfortable around Bella. It makes me feel so warm inside to know he is finally getting the love he deserves. It amazes me that Edward is making such progress. I can't wait for the has begun!

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Date: July 18, 2010 Title: Chapter 53: Chapter 53

*More tears on the horizon...reader blinks rapidly* Oh honey this was a whirlwind of emotion for me. Like Bella, I would like nothing more than to pull the plug on that rat bastard James for doing that to Edward...I feel her wrath. I feel sorrow for what Edward had to endure and was gladly agreeing with Bella as she told Edward to take back his life...

Gasp! I about fell out of my chair hearing Edward say I love you! I am so PROUD of him...heart filling with hope and warm fuzzies here...

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Date: April 25, 2011 Title: Chapter 104: Chapter 104

Happy Birthday to Edward! While he may have pushed for more, I am glad Bella made the decision to go slower. WHohooo! Way to go Bella honey! I know Edward will appreciate the alternative...wink wink

I just can't say how proud of Edward I am. He has made tremendous progress!

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Date: March 08, 2011 Title: Chapter 98: Chapter 98

So big reveals on how they feel about the upcoming confrontation with Elizabeth. That was spectacular. I love how Angela brings out some relavant points for them to consider. I was so excited.

Whoo and Edward's birhtday is coming up. I can't wait to see what Bella has cooking up in that brain of hers. I bet it will be good...

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Date: July 28, 2010 Title: Chapter 55: Chapter 55

Sigh...I know it had to happen but it is still kind of hard to see Edward struggling to understand himself and accept what happened in his past. I have every faith in him however so this to shall pass. I hope he opens up to Bella on how he feels. Emmett may have had an epiphany and I know Edward bolted but this may be a step in the right  direction for Emmett and Edward's relationship. Edward is doing remarkably well and it thrills me with the progress he is making...

This story is totally kickass...I'm loving it!

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Date: July 30, 2010 Title: Chapter 56: Chapter 56

Oh god that was one emotional chapter...Emmett finally understands and I have no doubt there would be a number of people in line to kill James for what he has done. I feel sick that Edward is out there somewhere alone. I hope to god that is him calling on the phone. He needs Bella whether he believes it at this point. I will wait on pins and needles for your next update...

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Date: August 03, 2010 Title: Chapter 57: Chapter 57

Wow...Edward is facing so much and I hope he sees his family is there for him. I sure hope Edward doesn't think that leaving Bella will be good for her...his line of thinking there made me feel sick. I sure as hell hope he doesn't go thru with his thoughts. Maybe his talk with Bella will derail those thoughts...keeps fingers crossed...

Whoo Carlisle and Esme on thier way home, I wonder what that will do to the dynamic of the weekend...

I will anxiously await the next update...

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Date: August 10, 2010 Title: Chapter 58: Chapter 58

THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU! I am so happy you feel Edward leaving would be pointless and destructive for everyone...I am relieved and bow to your awesomeness! I am thrilled they are communicating and working things out. Poor Bella about had a coranary thinking he was leaving and to be honest I was on the edge of my seat the whole time...I can't wait to see how this progresses...Wow...Edward in therapy....that's major!

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Date: August 16, 2010 Title: Chapter 59: Chapter 59

All I can say is progress is golden. I know that Edward still has a ways to go and I hope he isn't to hard on himself...healing will take time. I am so proud that he is going to try though, to let go of the past and heal. I am so excited for what is to come...

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Date: September 05, 2010 Title: Chapter 63: Chapter 63

Ok sitting here shocked as hell that it was Rosalie talking to Edward...damn didn't see that one coming. That was a fabulous surprise. I am thrilled that Edward is intervening on Emmett's behalf. Edward has made amazing progress and I am so proud of him...

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Date: September 09, 2010 Title: Chapter 64: Chapter 64

Ahhh I don't like the sounds of Victoria one bit...shudders...

Wow, this is going to be an interesting week coming up what with Bella going to Pheonix and Edward getting a visit from Victoria. I am anxious to see how it all goes.

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Date: November 25, 2010 Title: Chapter 78: Chapter 78

Gasp! I can't believe the nerve Victoria had. I know she misses her husband but what kind of fucked up woman is she to cause Edward that kind of trauma. I am beyond relieved that Carlisle kicked her ass off the property. I feel so bad for Edward. So much is happening and he is just struggling to keep up. Thank God Bella went home early.

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Date: September 15, 2010 Title: Chapter 64: Chapter 64

I am so happy that Bella got some good Alice time in. It did them both alot of good. I was so excited to see Edward opening up to Carlisle and then go to dinner and to top it off...invite Emmett...I am so excited.

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Date: September 16, 2010 Title: Chapter 65: Chapter 65

Wow...I mean WOW! That was an awesome chapter...talking about healing beginning... I was so excited that they were all talking and that Edward was letting his family in. This is freaking amazing! I am thrilled that Edward is seeking his physical comfort with Bella without asking and being a bit more himself. I wonder if Carlisle will let Bella go to therapy...I sure hope so. I still am a bit nervous about the Pheonix trip... its going to be so hard on Edward and Bella especially with Victoria coming.

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Date: November 07, 2010 Title: Chapter 75: Chapter 75

Poor Edward having to face to horrible woman every year. She sounds horrid and I hope Edward makes it ok. He has been thru so much in such a short time but at the same time he is learning so much. Two more days and then he and Bella can see each other, sigh...they are going to be so happy to finally see each other. I can only hope for the best when it comes to Victoria...I will anxiously await the outcome...

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Date: November 11, 2010 Title: Chapter 76: Chapter 76

You know that I know cliffies are a given in this story but sometimes they make me want to pull my hair out. Geesh I bet Bella feels like jumping the next plane home. Sigh...this was definatly a stressful weekend for all involved. I honestly can't wait for it to be over....sigh.



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