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Penname: Kateration [Contact]
Real name: Kathryn
Status: Member
Member Since: May 08, 2010

I've written all types of fan fiction but Twilight honestly motivates me the most. I'm more into plot styles that are closer to Canon, although there are a few exceptions.

Unfortunately, I haven't been a Twilight fan as long as most people. I managed to stumble upon it right after the books were all published but before the first film was released. I coun't myself lucky for that. But they way it came into my life is something I feel like should be shared.

Back in 2008, I had a very bad breakup with my boyfriend, I was heartbroken, depressed, I wasn't exactly in the best mind frame. My family and friends began to worry about me, I hardly slept, I barely ate, I shrank down from 122 to almost 95 pounds in a month. I was devastated to say the least; it was quite possibly the darkest time in my life.

I'd heard about Twilight over the years, mentioned by several people but I never really paid it any mind. I'd read Good Charlotte fan fiction at, and on their boards would be a thread, dedicated exclusively to Twilight, and the moderators and admins were always saying "Read my Twilight fan fiction." Same on the JC Chasez boards. Same on every fan fiction board.

And I'm sitting there thinking, "What in the HELL are they all talking about?!"

I continued to ignore it all, but there it was, I couldn't escape it. There was mention of it everywhere, I slightly remember hearing the word 'Twilight' mentioned on the MTV VMA's but once again, I just shrugged it off. Then the chaos began, thousands of people were up in arms because Russell Brand cut off some of the cast members.

By the time August rolled around in 2008, I was inches away from just banging my head on my monitor, and pleading for God to turn this crazy world right-side-up again.

Two weeks later, I got my wish.

In one day, I happened to accidentally catch a glimpse of the trailer and I thought " this is what all the fuss is about." I'm a sucker for hopeless romances. That very same night, my best friend Megs and I decided to go hit the bars. I'd been reclusive for nearly 8 months, shutting myself off from everything. I was sitting on her big comfy bed, minding my own business, while she checked her e-mail, and her bookshelf caught my attention. Not just one, but all four, Twilight books were sitting there side by side. (Breaking Dawn had just been released a few days prior. I was VERY lucky.) My curiosity was piqued. I asked her about them and she suggested I begin reading the first one while she got ready to go. So I fatefully opened to the first page. An hour later, she emerges, ready to go, and I suddenly realize that I'm on page 143. (I read abnormally fast.) I couldn't put it down. I took it to the bar with us! (With her permission of course.) How pathetic is that? I stowed it away in my purse. (Keep in mind, my purse is the size of Mary Poppins's luggage.) While she spent the night, drinking and having an absolute blast I'm sure, I sat at the bar and read the damn book. I read a book, at a bar.You get the picture. She let me borrow all four books, and I read all four books in about 4 days. I even reread them all several times. Maybe it was because I read them all in consecutive order, back to back, that I enjoyed the entire series as if it were just one big book. I count myself blessed to have found the series just after Breaking Dawn was released.

I don't have the energy to rehash my heartbreak, but I can tell you that New Moon saved me. It was as if the tragedy of my breakup with my boyfriend was there on the pages, and I was Bella. I knew how she felt because I was there, in her shoes, feeling her pain. I don't know what kind of state I would be in now if I hadn't read those books when I did.

However… Breaking Dawn did leave me feeling a little…unsatisfied. There was something missing from it. Since reading it, I have discovered that Stephanie Meyer's was only contracted for four books, and pressure had been put on her by the publishing house , to find a way to finally end the series. I think this was a HUGE mistake. They could have made millions of dollars if they'd let it play out the way it was meant to, but instead they forced her to cram everything into one last book. (Plus, we could have had way more Edward/Bella time) It didn't have the same tone as Twilight, New Moon or Eclipse. (Don't get me wrong, it's possibly my second favorite book of the series behind New Moon.)

But there were serious holes to it: Alice's premonition: Like most people I was thinking "HELL YEAH!" Finally a good old fashioned throw down! But NO! Nothing. We got all worked up for nothing. We didn't even get to SEE Bella try to kick Jacob's ass, it just…skipped right over it. Then the rest of the book…200 pages of nothing. She trained herself on her ability and prepared Jacob and Renesmee to leave and then they didn't even need to do ANY of it. The powers were cool, how she protected everyone, but C'MON! Nothing?

"Hi we're the Volturi, we come to fight." "Hi we're the good guys, we come to fight too." "Hi we're the Volturi why don't we just talk a lot?" "Hi we're the good guys, wanna watch us do nothing?" WHAT! We could have just had 200 pages of Edward and Bella minus the random kid, being all sappy and stuff but no…nothing until the last two pages of the book.

I wanted someone dead. Someone important. That's why I am guilty of writing nearly 200 pages of this story in a week after reading all the Twilight books. (Ask Megs, I made her reread the whole thing every time I added a new line. She watched me succumb to OED. Obsessive Edward Disorder. She watched me do all of this in one single week.)

It was my own fatally flawed dissatisfaction with the closing fragments of their world, that spawned the words, of which I have carefully pieced together, in my own refusal to accept the fact that Edward and Bella's story was complete. I wasn't satisfied with the ending of their story because…well…after all…Bella's a vampire, and Edwards a vampire… and vampires are immortal…and immortals live forever…so if they live forever…then the story never ends right?

Twilight saved my life. Hopefully you'll understand.

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Summary: Feature


*Takes place during New Moon in an alternate universe.

On March 16, 2006,  the World changed, and everything and anything that the Cullens ever cared about was lost. They had to find their own way in this New World. Edward never wished to exist in a world where Bella didn't.  Unfortunately, his family desperately needed him, so he'd stay to help them.   And by doing so, he hoped to redeem himself for his failure to save the one creature he couldn't protect. 

With rumours in the South of humans feeding off the living and stealing people from their beds, the Cullens have a responsibility to protect the ones they can from those monsters in the night.  This was Edward's last chance to fight for his soul and his salvation.  He would finally be ready to face Judgement day and be deemed worthy enough to be with Bella once again.  Or would something or someone change the path he was destined to go down?  Faith, hope and love are powerful things, and Edward is about to find out just how powerful they are.


Yes... this is the story that is set during a post-apocalyptic nuclear war. Just try the Prologue to get a feel for it before passing judgment. You might be surprised. Warning: There is violence and disturbing images the further the story goes along.

Categories: New Moon, AU Characters: Alice, Bella, Carlisle, Edward, Emmett, Esme, Jasper, Rosalie
Series: None
Chapters: 39 Completed: Yes Word count: 315697
[Report This] Published: March 24, 2009 Updated: March 25, 2012

Reviewer: Kateration Signed
Date: June 15, 2013 Title: Chapter 17: A Problem Shared is a Problem Halved

I'm really starting to get edgy about Bella. 

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Date: June 15, 2013 Title: Chapter 19: Music Has Charms to Soothe the Savage Beast

Gah! I think for the sake of making sure that I leave better reviews that I should read first then go back and review because I'm in such a hurry to get to the next chapter that I can't stop. 

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Date: June 15, 2013 Title: Chapter 16: All Things Must Pass

Ugh! I do not like asshole Jacob but it's good to see Embry and Quil being a voice of reason. 

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Date: June 15, 2013 Title: Chapter 18: Faith Keeps the Man Who Keeps his Faith

I feel bad for Carlisle, I do, but that's his wife! Doesn't he care at all?

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Date: June 15, 2013 Title: Chapter 15: None So Deaf as Those Who Will Not Hear

Damn, I hate when Jacob is a dick. 

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Date: June 15, 2013 Title: Chapter 7: There's Many a Slip Twixt Cup and Lip

I actually feel panicked reading this even though I know he doesn't find her in time. Damn good story telling.

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Date: June 15, 2013 Title: Chapter 8: Fools Rush in Where Angels Fear to Tread

The damn Volturi!!!! Jeeze I hate them! I don't think Stephanie ever explored how truly evil they could be, but here it is!

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Date: June 15, 2013 Title: Chapter 9: Pride Comes Before the Fall

Pride and Prejudice. Men are such fools. I'm really loving this story, it's wonderful to get lost in.

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Date: June 15, 2013 Title: Chapter 10: To Err is Human, To Forgive Divine

Okay, so you made me cry. Happy? Poor Bella. Poor Edward!

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Date: June 15, 2013 Title: Chapter 12: A Chain is Only as Strong as its Weakest Link

Edward in a bald cap, oh the images. So I don't understand. If Victoria killed Bella or turned her then were is she/her body?

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Date: June 15, 2013 Title: Chapter 13: Fortune Favors the Brave

Oh my God. How horrific. I never thought to read Rosalie so...human, but there she is. This would be a phenomenal movie. 

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Date: June 15, 2013 Title: Chapter 14: The Darkest Hour is Just Before the Dawn

Ahhhh! It's not Carlisle's fault! He was only trying to help! Damn Volturi!

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Date: June 15, 2013 Title: Chapter 6: The Ends Justify the Means

The Polka Dot Bikini story was pretty dang amusing. Loved it.

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Date: June 15, 2013 Title: Chapter 5: No Man is an Island

Baltimore? And that was a great way of telling Charlie the truth without really telling Charlie the truth.

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Date: June 15, 2013 Title: Chapter 4: To Travel Hopefully is a Better Thing Than to Arrive

I love when with one sentence someone shows how perfect Rosalie and Emmett are together. It redeems her a lot, because if Emmett loves her, then there has to be something there.

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Date: June 15, 2013 Title: Chapter 3: He Who Hesitates is Lost

HA HA! I would pay money to see Emmett really do that!

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Date: June 15, 2013 Title: Chapter 1: Prologue

I'm hooked already. This is such an amazing concept. I love it.

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Date: June 15, 2013 Title: Chapter 2: As You Sow So Shall You Reap

I want to keep reading but I must review because it is imperative that you know how amazing this is. I'm so hooked! Gah!

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Date: June 17, 2013 Title: Chapter 35: Every Dog Has His Day

Charlie totally tugged on my heart-strings in this one. *sigh* I'm getting close to the end. Can't you make a sequel or something? Lol. 

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Date: June 17, 2013 Title: Chapter 36: It's Better to Light a Candle Than Curse the Darkness

That was absolutely beautiful. Very moving. I do love that it didn't come off preachy or religious really. It was just so hopeful. I'm glad they finally revealed what they were. Maybe after this is all over the whole world will know the truth one day and Vampires and Humans can coexist. So sad that the end is so near. 

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Date: June 17, 2013 Title: Chapter 37: Every Man Has His Price

There are no words for this. 

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Date: June 17, 2013 Title: Chapter 38: Let Not the Sun Go Down On Your Wrath

I don't even know how to begin right now. You have woven such a beautiful story. One more to go...

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Date: June 17, 2013 Title: Chapter 39: Epilogue

It's strange not knowing how to begin, not being able to form words to do any justice to what I feel, but I guess the best place to start is at the beginning itself. I remember when I found this world, and how it changed my life. There is something about words weaving into stories that is captivating. The imagination is a powerful thing. I was always a writer, it was always a fascination with creating miracles in my head and reliving them. Over the years I amassed thousands and thousands of pages of thoughts, that no one would ever read. I felt like part of myself was hiding, and maybe it was. I will never forget when I first began this journey, when I found the courage to finally share something I had written. Then Twilight happened to me and it was just as Edward described in New Moon: It shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty. When it was over, nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light.

Twilight inspired me and just as Jim Jarmusch said "Nothing is original. Steal from anywhere that resonates with inspiration or fuels your imagination. Devour old films, new films, music, books, paintings, photographs, poems, dreams, random conversations, architecture, bridges, street signs, trees, clouds, bodies of water, light and shadows. Select only things to steal from that speak directly to your soul. If you do this, your work (and theft) will be authentic. Authenticity is invaluable; originality is non-existent. And don’t bother concealing your thievery - celebrate it if you feel like it. In any case, always remember what Jean-Luc Godard said: “It’s not where you take things from - it’s where you take them to.”"
You and I, we stole from something that spoke to us and look what became of your stealing...a masterpiece. I don't know if I will ever succeed in doing what you've done here. I don't know if I'll ever reach the end, if I have the courage or the strength to get there but I am so inspired by you that it is beyond words. The places you took these characters, the masterful bonds you broke and forged, the evolution of a seeming already completed fictional persona into something entirely new and more profound. 
You created one of those stories that people lose themselves in. I know I did. I would break from reading and look at the people around me, having been living in the pages of a bittersweet and powerful reunion, and not understand how the world could just carry own while the simple words in a story had altered me so completely. The looks people gave me when out of nowhere I would shoot up into the air and raise my fists and cheered when it was confirmed that Bella was indeed the weapon that Maria had been hoarding...they thought I was crazy but I was so excited to be right that I didn't care. You made me care only about the desperation that had me rushing to the next chapter every waking moment I had to spare. 
I don't know how you came up with this ingenious plot but I am truly humbled and awed by your talent. I meant what I said about this story having the potential to be a phenomenal film. It would. I could see it all. 
All I can do is thank you, for letting me live in your story and get lost in it. It has truly been one of those experiences just like finding Twilight that has shot across my sky like a meteor and blinded me by it's light. Your talent is beyond words. I can only hope to know the contentment of completion one day myself but until then, the masterful example you have set forth will stay with me always. This has been a joy and a thrill to ride along with on the journey, and all I know is that I think there's a little bit of a Phoenix in all of us. Whenever we find something like this that changes us so much, we are reborn and we will never be the same again. I will never be the same again. Thank you for sharing. Is been an honor to read.

Reviewer: Kateration Signed
Date: June 16, 2013 Title: Chapter 34: You Can't Get Blood Out of a Stone

I was screaming it in my head the whole time as Alice had her visions. I was like "The wolves! Get the wolves to fight! Come on Jacob!" It's story is EPIC!

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Date: June 16, 2013 Title: Chapter 33: Better the Devil You Know Than the Devil You Don't

Gah! Why couldn't the bombs land on Maria, and the stupid Volturi??? Well, I guess we wouldn't have a story then would we?



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